Friday, February 12, 2016

安•全•感

嗯... 好久都没在这里写些什么了... 这或许是个好的征兆吧... 因为唯一会让我来这里写东西的理由, 就是当我心情低落, 但却又找不到任何地方或对象来抒发我的情绪的时候... 所以现在的我, 也只是想来抒发一点负面的情绪而已...

就想说说今天发生的一些小事情... 因为种种原因 (新年拜年 + 没有车 + 家人外出), 我被逼skip了晚餐... 而且午餐也没有吃得很饱... 我告诉了你, 其实也只是想要你多关心我一点... 我明白你必须工作到10点, 也明白你的朋友们会在你放工后去你家拜年... 我想要的, 就仅仅是你偶尔向我问起我还好吗, 有没有肚子不舒服或是什么之类的, 但你却能连续几个小时对我几乎不闻不问, 让我从希望慢慢地变成了失望..... 而现在的我也因为肚子进风 + PMS 而睡不着觉了...

睡不着的我, 又开始胡思乱想了...

老实说, 我是一个很很很很缺乏安全感的女生... 而当我安全感不足的时候, 我就会开始胡思乱想... 我从来不曾跟你提过, 但是在你那一群社服家人里, 有一个女生让我很介意... 我会介意你去 like 她的照片, 我会介意你在她任何 post 里的留言, 我会介意你和她的任何互动... 或许你会觉得我疑心重, 嫉妒心重, 但是有时女人的直觉就是很准的... 而我觉得, 你在意她, 比其他的社服家人更多... 有时真的不是我想想这么多, 可是这些想法就会不由自主地浮现在我脑海里... 或许是你态度的转变吧, 渐渐地对我有些冷淡, 也或许是我对自己太没信心了吧, 因为我真的会怕你们日久生情... 尤其你们总是有那么那么那么多的活动, 好多好多天的camp 还有下星期即将来临的 trip... 以前的我从来不会担心这么多, 但是现在的我已经慢慢的被这些想法侵蚀, 不禁让我觉得自己越来越不像真正的我...

或许你会说, 这些想法, 我从来不曾让你知道... 但是其实, 我是真的不想让你知道我有这些想法... 我不想让你觉得我不信任你, 因为我不信任的其实是我自己... 我纯粹是想维护我们的感情, 不想我们为了这么小的事情又开始争吵, 因为我们感情的裂缝都是这些小小的争吵导致的... 

我只是想当个体贴你的好女朋友, 因为愚蠢的我唯一能想到的就是, 只要我做一个全心全意对你好的一百分女友, 你就不会想要离开我了...... :')

Saturday, August 08, 2015

爱情 ● 保鲜期

爱情保鲜期究竟有多久呢?

是否两人在一起久了就不需要保鲜了?

怎么我感觉现在的你已不再重视我们的感情了呢?

或许, 我的任性, 无理取闹, 已让你感到疲惫不已吧....

现在的我, 不论说些什么, 做些什么, 都得小心翼翼, 深怕一不小心就会踩中地雷, 把我们的感情还有自己炸得粉身碎骨...

或许别人会想, 这样的爱情很累很辛苦...

但对我来说, 并不会特别的累或特别的辛苦...

因为, 对方是你...

我宁愿默默地承受这些, 也不愿接受某天你离我而去.. 因为那种痛, 会比现在痛个几百倍...

所以我正在努力, 我只希望我们能像从前一样开心快乐, 我只希望能陪你找回最初的感觉...

我只希望, 这不是奢望......




最近无意间听到了两首歌, 是我曾经蛮喜欢听的... <酷我>随机地播了这两首歌, 虽然歌词并没有很贴切, 但听了还是有点感触... 所以就在这里分享分享吧 :)



我们, 怎么了?


사랑해 널 사랑해, 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니...?
(I love you, I love you, Will you love me again...?)


Thursday, July 16, 2015

感•觉

你说, 你忘了以前的感觉是怎样了...

我一直以为我们好好的.... 直到前天我们出去, 又像之前一样有了点小争吵.. 我本以为只是小事, 之后我们也变得像平常一样, 可是为什么... 为什么你会突然说起了这个话题....

为什么你要我有心理准备, 准备你随时可能向我提出[分手]...... 重点是, 为什么你可以那么的轻易说出这句话... 你面不改色, 还能叫我冷静点... 我知道, 这一路走来不易, 而最近的你也好像比较疲惫... 或许是因为我们越来越频繁的争吵, 或许我太爱乱发脾气, 而你恰好又不是会哄人的人....

你不知道, 在我听到的那一刻, 我的心有多痛... 我真的无法接受... 我无法接受你突然说要离开我... 或许哪天你开口了, 我是真的会崩溃的...

记得不久前有个朋友问起我, 为什么我会那么的不舍得? 我究竟是舍不得你, 还是舍不得这段感情, 舍不得我那 "taken" 的身份... 此刻的我可以很确定的说, 我舍不得的... 是你.... 如果说我舍不得的只是那个身份, 我大可以再从新找另一个人, 从新开始一段新恋情... 可是我发觉我并不想这样... 我希望在我身边一直到老的会是.... 你... ♡


你说, 你忘了之前是怎样的感觉...

你说, 你觉得我们现在像是朋友的关系...

你说, 让我有心理准备, 万一那件事真的发生的话, 我也得保持冷静....


我说, 让我们一起找回最初的感觉, 好吗?

我说, 让我们一起加油, 一起走下去, 好吗?

我说, 我们不要轻言放弃, 好吗?

我说, 我爱你..... ♡♡

Sunday, May 31, 2015

哭。

你常问我, 为什么我那么爱哭, 为什么我时常因为一点小事而掉眼泪... 那你有没有想过, 为什么我会那么轻易地掉眼泪呢? 试问有哪一个女生喜欢随随便便乱哭一场呢? 难道没事发生我也会乱哭吗?

你知道吗? 我并不是一个那么容易在别人面前掉眼泪的人.. 而你是唯一一个我能真正卸下我的武装, 在你面前安心地脆弱的那个人... 可是为什么, 为什么我每次哭的时候你都会不耐烦? 是, 你的确一开始会哄哄我, 可是那并没能撑多久... 之后你不再哄我, 你会开始不耐烦, 开始厌倦了, 再之后我们两个就会保持沉默, 冷战...

今天, 是我们相隔两地好久之后在见面, 你都不知道我心里有多开心.. 我只想好好相处两个人独处的时光... 一开始计划延迟了, 因为你和家人在外面, 那我不介意 , 我当然也明白你的时间不能只花在我一个人的身上.. 可是在那之后, 等到我们终于可以出去的时候, 时间已经不早了.. 但我也不介意, 只要能见到你, 就算必须让我开车去载你我也不会介意的.. 我虽然有点害怕开夜车, 因为已经好一段时间没驾车了, 可是我也不介意.. 我只是想和你见面, 和你一起坐着聊聊天... 结果呢? 一路上你也只顾着按手机, 好那我也能体谅你, 因为你说学校是有些忙, 你也和你的那些 brother 们在讨论一些事.. 再之后我们又闹的不是很开心, 因为你总觉得我每次不停地重复说同一件事很烦.. 你要知道, 我会一直重复说很痛, 是因为我觉得真的很痛!! 因为我的智慧牙在作怪, 再加上 PMS, 所以我才会一直不停地说很痛啊!! 然后我就跟你赌气, 干脆做个哑巴算了.... 重点是, 我特地驾了车去载你, 你竟然和我喝了一杯饮料后就说要回家了.. 我真的很kek 你知道吗? 我知道你一心为我好, 担心我一个女生那么晚驾车回家会有危险, 而且你妈也不喜欢, 但你知不知道, 当我那么夜了也肯驾车去载你, 就代表了我已经做好了会迟驾车回的准备啊.. 我只想在和你又相隔两地之前多呆在一起而已... 所以, 在不知如何向你表达这郁闷的心情的情况下, 我又和你赌气了.. >< 其实, 我要的只是你的一个拥抱, 一点安慰... 的确你是有哄我, 但也维持不了多久, 然后你就觉得我不领情了.... 结果气氛就变得很僵...... :(


其实, 我真正想要的, 只是你能听听我的诉苦, 让我发泄一下我的情绪, 之后我就会很okay 了... 而且, 我觉得你并没有发现的一件事就是, 吵架的时候, 你总会想做赢的那一方.. 你总会有很多很多的道理与理由在你所说所做的一切的背后, 似乎你所做的一切都是对的... 简单来说, 你永远是对的... 以前的我, 总会和你硬碰硬... 只是之后我发现, 我越是和你继续争吵, 我们之间就会闹得越僵... 然后, 我开始学会了沉默, 久而久之就开始变成了一个哑巴... 只是哑巴当久了, 情绪憋久了之后, 总会变得难以忍受... 整个人也变得在崩溃的边缘, 感觉那些憋了太久的情绪一触即发...

今天在和你闹僵了之后送你回家,  我看似若无其事地开车离开, 其实我在转角了之后, 就把车停在一旁大哭了一场... 虽然你可能又会觉得我怎么那么无聊, 为了那么点小事都能大哭特哭, 但你不知道的是, 我哭的不仅仅是因为刚才的那件事, 也是因为我回想起了之前憋着的许许多多的感受, 就当作我是一次过发泄了吧...  或许你又会说, 有什么事我可以告诉你, 不要一个人憋着.. 我能说的只是, 不是我不想告诉你, 只是很多时候说了比没说还糟, 引起的只会是另一场的争吵...

我宁愿选择一个人承受, 虽然有时会有点辛苦, 但我觉得是值得的...

因为, 我爱你...

所以, 下次若我再哭的时候, 你不必问我为什么, 只要抱紧我就好了...


# Because I value our relationship much more than my ego. I love you, I really do... ♡



P/s: 我写那么多也没用, 反正你也不会看到这个post 的.... 唉~

Monday, April 20, 2015

痛。

原来, 在你眼中的我, 是那么随便的女人...

原来, 我给予你的信任, 是那么的不足为道...

原来, 你真的认为, 我会随意地和其他男人flirt..

原来, 只有傻傻的我, 才会傻傻的相信你会信任我...

但是, 我知道这些都不能怪你... 是我自己亲手把你给我的信任摔在地上... 是我自己把我们的幸福给毁了....

你说, 我们俩是来自不同世界的人.. 但世上又会有多少个情侣是来自同一个世界的呢?

恋爱, 并没有我们想象中那么容易, 但其实它也并不难... 它所需的只是两个可以互相包容和体贴对方的人, 仅此而已...




心痛得无法呼吸, 找不到你留下的痕迹...

 找不到坚强的理由, 再也感觉不到你的温柔.. -星语星愿-

11:11

有人说, 如果在时间11点11分的时候许下愿望, 那么愿望就会实现... 你知道吗? 我的愿望从以前到现在都始终如一.. 而我所许下的愿望就是-- 希望我和你能永远幸福在一起.. ♡ 我是真的真的真的很希望这个愿望可以实现.. 但我不知道, 你是否也是这么希望的? 我现在最害怕的一件事就是, 你会对我提出分手.. 我不确定自己是否能够承受, 我唯一希望的就是, 你别提出这个要求.. 看来我得暂时把我 11:11 的愿望换成这个了...

老天爷, 您听见了吗? 我只是希望您能实现我这么一个小小的愿望, 我只是想和他一起幸福到永远....

I love you, pigpo. ♡♡

Saturday, April 18, 2015

今•非•昔•比

变了.. 一切都变了... 现在的你, 就算觉得辛苦, 也不会再向我诉说... 其实我在想, 你今天 post 的 fb status " 真的好辛苦...", 是否是因为我们的关系? 是不是因为你已不再爱我, 但却又不忍心伤害我.. 所以你就继续假装爱我呢? :/ 还是我又想太多了呢?

其实我也不想想太多的... 只是因为最近的你真的让我感到有点陌生... 你已不再是从前那个把我放在第一位, 做什么事都对我呵护倍至的你了...

你说你总会想起那时我和你说的那件事, 而从那时开始你会联想到了一连串类似的事情... 但是我的确没有做过任何你所想象的那些事.. 而我唯一犯过的错, 我也如实地跟你说了... 其实我当时和你说的目的, 并不是想告诉你我在那个 truth or dare 里和另外一个男生 dare了用嘴巴把他手中的bracelet 取出... 其实我真正想告诉你的是, 就算当时我喝了点酒, 我还是记得有你这么一个爱我的男朋友, 所以我也潜意识地告诉他们 "我已经有男朋友了, 我不能做这么过分的dare.." (一开始的dare 是要我用嘴巴把那男生的眼镜拿下 =.=) 可是当时他们大部份都已经喝醉了, 他们又怎么会那么轻易地放过我呢? 所以我才想出了那样的下下策 -- 把眼镜改成了 bracelet.. 而那男生也清楚知道我有男朋友了, 更何况他自己也有心仪的女生, 所有他还特地把 bracelet 乔到了最外面的位置, 好让我能用最容易的方法拿下.. 你问我为什么喝了酒还能记得那么清楚吗? 第一, 我并没有真的喝醉, 当晚我只喝了一点, 所以那时发生的所有事情我都记得一清二楚; 第二, 当时也有两个人是完全没碰酒精, 而他们也在完全清醒的状态下.. 所以这两个人可以当我的人证的.. 但我还是希望你能信任我, 不质疑我... 不过, 看来你已失去了对我的信任感, 安全感... 我们还可以回到之前吗?

其实,我真的好害怕... 害怕有一天你会向我提出分手的要求.. :( 因为我觉得你现在已经到了崩溃的边缘... 到底我该怎么做才能让你找回以前的感觉呢? 我真的好想好想之前的我们... 我只是想找回那遗失的美好... 那个只属于我们的快乐的从前..

我知道你的痛是我给的承诺...


但,

请你回头, 我会陪你一直走到最后.. ♡

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

嫉妒 • 妒忌

其实我真的不知道自己还能忍多久.. 我真的不能接受你对别的女生那么好, 而对我竟然比对她们还冷淡.. 我不是想比较, 只是这样真的会让我钻牛角尖, 我会把自己想得一文不值, 我会觉得我这个女友竟然还不如那些女性朋友....

我嫉妒, 嫉妒你不断地在 fb like 别的女生的照片..
我嫉妒, 嫉妒你在别的女生的 post 的留言里放 ;) 的笑脸..
我嫉妒, 嫉妒你对别的女生的温柔...
我嫉妒, 还有很多很多琐碎的事让我嫉妒, 但我却从不曾说出口... 只因我不想添加你的烦恼...

 而令我更耿耿于怀的是, 你那 " recent search " 里的 "她"...

算了吧~ 我现在也好累了, 是时候该睡了 @@

Monday, April 13, 2015

爱。

今天上blog, 并不是因为心情不好, 而是很想分享这件事, 想记住这份感觉.. 或许对你们而言是一件很小的事情, 但对我来说却有着很大的意义 :)

在临睡前看到你这封信息, 我真的好开心好开心 ♡ 当我看见你那句 "I love you and I really do" 的时候, 我的泪也不自觉地掉了下来.. 但这次流的, 是感动的眼泪 :') 我是真的很感动, 也很开心.. :D 真希望以后都能一直这样~ ♡♡

幸福, 没有捷径, 只有经营 :)



原来, 从天堂掉入地域, 可以如此的快... 就只需那区区的两分钟... 本想去我的fb profile 找我刚 post 的一张照片《最重要的决定》来 attach 在这里.. 没想到我的google里的 fb 是上次你没 sign out 的.. 更没想到的是, 在你的 "recently search" 里的第一个人竟然是"她"... 难道你还没放下她吗? 还是现在的我让你发现以前的她有多好呢? 你后悔吗?

看来我还是别想太多了.... 只能和自己说, 快去睡吧... 唯有当你睡着后, 你才能抛开一切, 无忧无虑.... 晚安各位~ 我还各位什么呢, 明明就没人啊...

Wednesday, April 08, 2015

悔。

唉.. 又是一个失眠的夜晚.. 果然, 一切已和从前不太一样.. 从前的你, 总会热情回应; 现在的你, 冷漠以对.. 就算亦有甜言蜜语, 却只像是在履行责任, 而非出自真心.... 就连在电话里对话的声音, 听起来也那么的冷冰冰, 而这冷冰冰的音调, 以无形中地把我给冻伤了.. 记得昨天, 我打了通电话给你, 冷漠的回应, 冰冷的语调, 我都接受了.. 你匆匆结束了对话, 而且还把电话给挂断了, 这我也接受了... 可是为什么, 为什么偏偏要让我听到你在挂电话前那么热情和开心地和你的朋友讲话.. 那一百八十度转变的态度, 让我无法适从.. 而在嘟声响起后, 我的泪也不自觉地掉了下来....

我后悔... 真后悔当初为何会做出了那么伤你心的事, 而这更伤了我的心... 可是悔不当初, 我只能说... 这是我自己咎由自取, 自做自受...

现在, 夜夜陪着我伴我入睡的, 已不再是你那暖暖的信息了... 而是那一串串挂在脸上的泪珠, 那一道道脸颊上干了的泪痕...

无意间想起的这首歌....
刺猬

这歌词还真像是一把利刃, 一刀一刀地往我心里刺....



我真的希望能和你一起走完我们的下半辈子... 可是此刻的我, 不知道我是否有那个福气... 或许, 此刻的你, 心里的真命天女已经不是我了吧....

Sunday, April 05, 2015

Untitled.

已经快三年没上blog了.. 三年时间说长不长,说短却也不算太短.. 我也不曾想过会回到这个 blog.. 我觉得, 应该也不会有人发现我有blog 吧~ 就算懂的也应该不会在回来看了.. 那就好... 至少我终于有个可以抒发自己感情的地方了... 现在也不想多说什么, 只是想说... 现在的心情糟透了.. 😔😔或许只有当你真正爱上一个人才会感觉到这种痛吧...  而他也必然不知道, 当他说出那句 "我已不再像从前那样爱你了", 那感觉有多痛.. 但我却只能装没事, 故作坚强, 每每到了夜里才会把自己的感情偷偷的发泄... 而留下的只有那夜夜都湿溚溚的枕头, 更讽刺的是那是我为你我各縫一个的枕头... 没想到当初缝下它的用处竟然是这样... 😧 今天就说到这里吧... 我累了, 也泪了....

Monday, July 30, 2012

CoMe BaCk...

Do you realize that you've completely turned into another person ever since you been there? I dont know if it is because of the new environment or what but you're kinda like a stranger to me now.. you're so rude to others now and the rudeness is all shown in ur actions and ur words.. why are you so mean to others? do you have to behave like this all the time? do you really think that it's the only way to protect urself from being hurt by others? sometimes, I just feel like you're such a hypocrite.. you can just tell lies without feeling guilty and you can still act like normal.. I think the award for the best liar is meant for you.. you're telling more lies than truths nowadays and you dont even feel bad about it? I just dont understand why must you change to this kind of person.. people normally change to be a better person but you're just becoming worse and slowly turn to be a stranger to me.. I dont even know who you are anymore.. I know thats not the actual you but why? why did you do all these things? why must you do things that give me the feeling as if you're seeking attention from others? are you really that desperate to get someone to care for you? or you're still hoping that the particular person who has disappointed you to care for you again? just stop all these nonsense kayy.. that person is not gonna come back anymore cause that fella doesnt even give a damn about those things you do.. and now you're hurting someone else just because that person have hurt you like this before? haiy.. there are too many things I wanted to tell you but I just couldn't write them all out here.. I just wish that you'll get back to the normal you again.. let the angel in you show herself :)

To the original you, please come back......

Thursday, May 31, 2012

SuMmArY 2...

and now I'm gonna continue the story :)

December 2011
back to December~ :D -Taylor Swift-
hehe.. one of my favourite songs :) hmm, so talking about December, it's a pretty busy month for me though.. for the first 3 weeks of this month, I had extra classes every weekdays, like seriously? lol :/ but I still had the chance to enjoy my December since I'm a December baby.. hehe :) on the 7th of Dec 2011, the only thing that I'm not feeling happy about is I've had to attend extra class that day and it's maths extra class * to be honest, I dont like the teacher >.<* lol.. but thanks to this extra class, my classmates managed to surprise me! they gave me a pair of HIGHHEELS as my birthday present! :DD oh myy, I was really very very very happy~ :D (fyi, I'm very obsessed with highheels! teehee :P) Lu ee managed to trick me by saying that she preserved an insect and the specimen was kept in the shoe box and she wanted me to see if it could be used for her individual work.. and I actually believed it! I dont know whats wrong with me but I just became so slow that I didn't even realize that it was a present for me.. and hell yeah I love that highheels! :)) they even asked me to wear it to the prom and yes, I did :)

In early December too (which i forgot the date >.<) , my SPOC babes Ber & Soo celebrated our birthday at Xuan Music Cafe.. they surprised us too cause we thought that it was just a gathering for we have not met each other for a long time ad.. and I guess all of us enjoyed the chatting and the music that night :)

the birthday cake :) ♥
my SPOC babes! :D ♥ *one was absent though :(*
Happy Birthday to us! :) ♥
The most special present I've ever received :D
*credits to Ber and Soo*
and then on the 15th of Dec, I was involved in an event --- MHS charity movie screening :) we were busy preparing before the event and it turned out to be a successful one! :D glad it went well although the process of making it succeed isn't that easy >.< we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks in GSC Dataran Pahlawan and it was actually the very first time for me to sit on the floor of a cinema throughout the whole movie.. a special and nice experience :) and I love that movie cause those chipmunks are just so cute! :D

The committee board of Charity Movie Screening 2011 :)
18th of Dec, it's my wifey SuperNisseee's birthday :) she invited us to her birthday dinner in a restaurant (I forgot the name of the restaurant >.<) and celebrated her birthday there with her family and her MMU friends.. we gave her a bag with The Pearl (LOL XD) as her birthday present and I guess she likes it? XD and here are some pictures of the night :)

me and SuperNisseeee ♥
Gay Tong and the girls :D
peace! :)
all girls at the back! :DD
group photo with cakieee :)
19th of Dec, one of the most special days of my life :) I WENT TO PROM! LOL :D (never thought that I would attend a prom actually XD) so this is the first prom in my life! a very unique and extraordinary experience for me as I've never been to an event like this before.. although it's all about watching performances and dancing all night long, I still enjoyed every single second of it.. it just felt like a dream cause I've never dressed up like this before.. and I was really very very lucky to have won 2nd runner up for the Best Dressed Girl Award :) kinda stunned though when they called up my name :O and then we just danced danced danced like we're crazy XD really enjoyed it cause it helps to release stress.. haha.. but my feet and leg muscles hurt like sheeeet after that cause the heels are really high >.< and it's a prom right, so there were fast and slow songs played by the DJ.. and for the slow songs, single ladies like us will just be sitting down and chit chatting while watching those couples dance :D everything went well till a stupid fella came and asked me to dance with him when the last slow song was played.. I guess he was just too desperate to dance with someone cause he had been rejected by most of the girls that night.. I know it's real bad to say this but this is the truth.. there must be a reason why nobody's dancing with him and I'm not gonna say it here.. >.< anyway, I was completely speechless that time and I just rejected him right away.. but he didn't give up and he even knelt down.. OH PUHLEASSEE! I really didn't know how to respond to it but just kept on rejecting him.. thank God there are frens like Sharon and Kai Xin who protected me from him.. XD so I guess this is the only nightmare of that night.. :/ and when the event ended, we still stayed in the hotel talking and just spending our time there together.. oh yeah, I've forgotten to mention that the prom was held in the Phoenix Ballroom of Hotel Equatorial.. till it's about time to go back, all of us went back one by one.. and by the time I reached home, it was about 1.30am ad.. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself to remember this moment of my life, cause I know that after I changed back to my normal suit, it would be like getting myself back to the reality.. *kinda like Cinderella though LOL >.< so dramatic.. haha XD*

my pretty babes! ♥
my father's friend's daughter :D in short, my fren XD
receiving the award from Kylie :)
we took pictures everywhere, even in the toilet :D
another one! :D
took this in the lobby of EQ :)
25th of Dec, it's Christmassssss! :D hohoho~ Merry Christmas! XD hmmm so, on Christmas eve, I went to countdown in Portuguese Settlement.. I couldn't find a word to describe how many people were there that time, or maybe should I say people mountain people sea? XD *it's actually direct translated from a Chinese idiom :)* after the countdown in Portuguese Settlement, I went to Nisse's house and met my babes! :D we had a sleepover Christmas party there and yeah, we slept very kinda late HAHA :P and the next morning (should be afternoon LOL), we went to DP for our brunch in Wong Kok.. and there we met Shinyee, Manju, Chiewnee and Wanxin :) fated HAHA :D when it's an all-girls gathering, we would surely take lotsa pictures :))

we sleeping soundly :P
trying hard to wake the piggg (kei) up XD
yeah i worked as a part-time poser LOL >.<
trying to imitate pantae's Doraemon :D
with the awesome babes! ♥
peaceeeeee :D
more peaceeeeeeee LOL :P
awwwww ♥
when you got tired of the continuous shots XD
yeng lehhh~ :P *they said i looked like dai sou >.<*
we just couldn't stop taking pictures :D
MY FAVOURITE :D ♥
prettiessssss :)
I dont know why but somehow, we went to Oldtown, our lao di fang, for another meal.. LOL.. >.< and not forgetting the camwhoring :D

hehehe ♥
I realized that she likes doing this :D ♥
LOL >.<
and that looks like my body huh XD
January 2012
early of Jan, I went to catch insects with my classmates in Hutan Rekreasi Ayer Keroh so that we can complete our preservation project as we're all Bio students.. it's really not that easy to catch those insects cause it's either you see them or you don't, and even if you see them, they would be jumping or flying around :( and you would look like a crazy fellow chasing after those little creatures >.< while catching, one of my classmates, Tze ern got bitten by an ant :/ we struggled to get rid of the ant from her foot and luckily she's okay at last :) we stayed there for a few hours and caught quite a number of insects.. some of the species that we caught are the ones that we've never seen before.. so it's kinda interesting though.. and all of a sudden it started drizzling so we stopped catching and went home.. before we went home, we had our meal together in McD near that area and we had great conversations there :) and there, the bond between us became stronger :D

sitting in stranger's buggy :P
greeting the squirrel LOL
stepping on crocodiles :D
another one! :P
*the mak cik who helped us to take the pictures just couldn't stop taking pictures >.<*
group photo after the journey :D
-to be continued-

Monday, May 28, 2012

SuMmArY...

fuyohh.. it has been almost a year since I last updated my blog.. :/ I can see spiderweb everywhere and my blog is literally DEAD -.- but nevermind, I'm backk! :D tonnes of things happened throughout the year and I'm gonna summarized all these in this post! nyehehe :P dont worry, it wouldn't be a long one.... ( i hope so XD )

June 2011
hmm as I remember, there was only one big news during this month ---- a thief sneaked in my house and stole both my sisters' phones.. :/ that was kinda ridiculous 'cause when the thief sneaked in, we were in the house too! and all that we can say is, we were really very careless unlucky.. my second sis and I were watching some Korean variety show in the living room while my uncle was sleeping at that time.. my eldest sis was ironing clothes and her back was facing the back door.. so when the thief sneaked in through the back door, no one realized :/ and by the time my eldest sis realized her phone disappeared, she got panicked and started looking for it.. she almost turned the house upside down but still couldn't find her phone.. then, my second sis realized her phone disappeared and she couldn't find it too.. things are getting weird and mysterious till I saw the footprints on the floor in the direction to our room.. *it's kinda muddy behind my hse* then we started to feel scared.. we called dad and asked him to come back.. while waiting, my sis tried to call her number and hoped someone would just pick it up.. AND someone picked up the phone.. a teenager boy's voice, speaking in Malay.. he said he saw my sis' phone on the ground at the roadside and he didn't know whose phone was that so he just took it.. please la! obviously he was lying! pfft :/ the conversation was kinda long so I couldn't write it all here but the conclusion is, he didn't want money.. he just INDIRECTLY asked for sthing else (which I think I dont need to say it out here *kinda obvious though*) NONSENSE! he even asked my sis to go and take the phone from him ALONE.. seriously, I just simply dont understand WHY ARE THERE SO MANY PSYCHOS in this world! :/ if you're really that desperato, go find a prostitute lah! pfft.. so of course we wouldn't agree with him and my sis just decided to not care about her phone ad *though there are quite alot of important stuffs in her phone* after a few hours, that fella called back again and tried to negotiate with us.. but, with his no-brain attitude and still kept asking for nonsense stuffs, my sis got fed up and somehow made him admitted that he stole their phone.. he said he wasn't the one who came in to steal but his friend did.. but he can even clearly said that my sis was ironing clothes in the room and she was wearing a black shirt and shorts.. thats pretty obvious already! pfft.. we told him we'll report to the police and he started to feel scared.. *thats why we think that he might be a teenager* he said he would give back the phones but it was already 1.30am.. so we made a deal to get it back the next morning near a supermarket.. they didn't show up and so we made a police report.. this thing kinda like ended like this till the police told us that they caught the thief after a few months.. anyhow, they couldn't find my sis' phones which were stolen.. -the end- *thank God I always bring my phone along with me wherever I go*

July 2011
1st - 3rd ---> I participated in a school camp, Kem Perdana, which is compulsory for all Form 6-ers to join.. we thought it would be boring and yes, it is.. -.- the only thing we enjoyed doing in the camp was the gossiping chit-chatting :) there were also many competitions among the classes that were organised by the school.. and our class, the beta-ians, got 2nd runner up in the competition, Muzikarama in which we did a singing performance.. we sang Season in the Sun :)

 A picture of us performing with our teacher, Miss Tan :D
I like this! ♥
what you can do when you're bored in a camp :P
guess who? hehe x)

LOL macam mangsa banjir XD
yeah I'm the one lying on the floor  :P we took this cause we thought I'm leaving for Inti that time

So as you can see from the caption, I decided to leave for Inti that time and I actually left.. but I came back.. due to some problems that I found out only after I went there.. realized that the so-called FULL scholarship will cost me another 7000bucks excluding my living expenses.. so I decided to come back for a cheaper option, which is form6.. anyway I still wanna thank both my bestie, Bernice and Bren who helped me alot when I was there.. I think I would be very lost and not knowing what to do without both of them.. THANK YOU ♥ and when i got back to MHS, I think I surprised most of them cause I didn't tell them that I'm coming back for form6.. and it actually made me felt touched when they ran towards me screaming my name and hugged me the moment they saw me :')

August - October 2011
Awesome hangouts with my babes! :) 
 
me and appa Bren! :D ♥
my love, aMAYZEEing & my wifey, superNisseeee :)) ♥
The father and the son XD
The Power of Nine ♥
Cause we're amazing, just the way we are :D
nyehehehe :P
My rou-er babe! ♥ *I didn't know she did that :D*
the awesome 9~ ♥
Sleepover at Nisse's hse :) *notice rou's sexy leg on me? XD*
my ah-ma look revealed during the sleepover~ >.<
next morning :)
rou-er & jenn at Station One! ♥
Killer! our all-time favourite game XD
Midnight movie :) --- Conan the Barbarian *not a nice show though*

November 2011
and here comes the november~ :D it's all about the school activities :) first of all, we had our community service in Zoo Melaka.. yeap, we, the form 6-ers cleaned the whole zoo.. XD we were divided into groups and were sent to different department to carry out our duty.. it was kinda tiring but fun and we enjoyed it, I guess? haha.. a brand new experience indeed :)

our dedicated class monitor, YB suan way XD
the rubbish we collected :) *we collected more than 10 packs of these stuffs*
oh yeah~ taking picture after the service :D
yeah I'm the chimpanzee who ran away from this sangkar LOL x)
*read the notice on the board*
group photo! :) the awesome BETA-HAN children :D
besides the community service, we, the beta-ians had an awesome hangout during november.. it was actually a surprise celebration for the October and November babies and it turned out to be my surprise celebration too.. LOL! and yeah, obviously I was surprised cause I'm one of the organizers and I'd never thought that the surprise is for me too XD I'm also one of those who prepared the birthday 'cake' so I actually prepared my own cake huh.. cool~ :D

the birthday 'cake' :D *Domino's pizza*
Birthday buddies! :)
we making wishes :D
*all of us looked funny, and suan way looked like he's praying XD*

we went for a movie after the celebration --- In Time.. a very nice and awesome movie! each and everyone of us enjoyed the movie cause it's way too awesome :) then we went to the bowling alley for a few games although most of us are not very good in bowling.. XD but it doesn't matter, as long as we enjoyed the game and thats more than enough :)

looking pro but actually not pro at all XD *it's me btw*
the meal after bowling :D *six of us shared one claypot chicken rice LOL*
p/s : woots! seems like the post is getting longer and longer :P I guess I'm gonna stop here now and..... -to be continued-