My MoM

here is another post about my mom since ytd was da day tat she left us for 1 year in da lunar calendar..

last december
my mom had gone
cos of broncho pneumonia
we didn’t expect tat she would be leaving us so soon
to another world
altho she knew tat we love her
she stil had to leave us

here goes a story bout my mom:
“on 3rd Jan 1959
a baby was born
in da middle-class family
but she could only had her education til standard 6
as she had to earn money for her family expenses
she had endured many years of hardship
but she would nvr complaint
she met a guy when she was 20 over years old
tat is my dad
dey had been together for a few years
n finally dey tied da knot
in 1986
she gave birth to my bro
dey earned money by selling pau (bread)
2 years later,she gave birth to my eldest sis
n followed by my 2nd sis n me
dey stop selling pau when my eldest sis reached 7 years old
dey worked as canteen operator at sjk(c) ping ming
she had worked very hard til she had to c da doctor every holiday
in early april of 2008
she felt very pain at da backbone
sumtimes she couldn’t even get down from her bed
n at last she seek treatment at putra specialist hospital
she became better after seeking treatment
but we din know tat dis was da beginning of da nightmare
it started when we got da report of all da tests tat had been made by her
n da doctor told us tat her blood level was quite low
da doctor suspected tat she had cancer
n he suggested her to go to mmc(mahkota medical centre)
for checking n confirmation
a few days later
she received her report at mmc
da report was from australia
n it showed tat she had a bonemarrow cancer
named multiple myeloma
she was realy sad tat time
but dis didn’t cause her to give up hope
she seek treatment n ate medicine all da time
n all da food she had were organic food
for almost half a year
n her condition was realy undercontrolled
we were very happy tat time
n i realy tot tat she would recover soon
bt sthing happened on november of da same year
she started to cough
we tot tat it’s juz a small matter
but later on we realize tat she was coughing worse
thus,my dad bring her to her doctor in mmc
da doctor brought her to da x-ray room
n after da report came out
da doctor stated tat there was nth wrong wit her lungs
so he gave her some antibiotic n he went overseas
but she was stil coughing n few days later she was coughing badly
even worse than last time til she had a breathing difficulty
n my dad was very worried bout her tat time
as well as us
so dad brought her to mmc again
but da doctor is not my mom’s doctor
as her doctor went overseas
he suggested her to go for x-ray again
n he found out tat her left lung was infected by virus badly
so he asked her to stay in da icu
tat night
he called my dad
n said tat he wanted to giv anethesia injection to my mom
so tat he could use machine to help my mom to breath
as she couldn’t breath easily by herself
n we realy nvr expect tat tat night was da last time we talk to her
i stil rmb wat i said to her tat night
i told her tat she need nt worry n she would get up n recover very soon
n tat time
she closed her eyes
n nvr open it again
for da first few days we tot tat she would wake up soon
so we juz went to da hospital eday n asked her to be tough
a few days later
da doctor told us tat he didn’t giv any anethesia injection to my mom anymore
but my mom stil didn’t wake up
at tat time we started to worry
when my mom’s doctor came back
he was shocked cos b4 he went overseas she was stil ok
n so he treated her
he treated her very well til her blood pressure n others r stable
but yet my mom stil didn’t open her eyes
my dad had went to everywhere to find a solution
he even went to ask da god
but all these did not work
til dis condition had lasted for almost 15 days
my dad told us tat da doctor suspected her brain was dead
tat time i was at my aunt’s hse
when i heard tat,tears coursed down my cheeks
ebody is crying tat time
tat time i was realy realy very down
da doctor did told us bout my mom’s condition too
he asked us to be prepared
as my mom might be leaving us very soon
i rmb tat day was 19th of dec
my uncle went back from singapore juz to see my mom
n tat night my dad asked me n both my sis to stay at my aunt’s hse
so tat if sthing happened we can go to da hospital immediately
tat night we reached my aunt’s hse at almost 11.45pm
when i nearly slept at 12 sthing
i heard sum1 knocked da door
he’s my uncle
he told us tat my dad phoned him
n ask us to go to hospital now
every1 of us got a very bad feeling
when i reached da hospital n walked into icu
i heard sum1 crying
she’s my 2nd uncle’s wife
when i reached my mom’s bed
i saw my mom had no heartbeat n breathing anymore
tat time i was realy devastated
i couldn’t even stand still n i felt tat both my legs is weak
n tat night my mom had gone
she left us
without saying a word
n she didn’t even talk to my bro b4 she went to da hospital
as my bro is studying at kl n not yet go back tat time
n now my bro got no chance to talk to her anymore
it had been da truth tat my mom had left us
on 20th dec 2008……”

actually i stil don’t believe tat my mom had gone
i always hope tat dis is a dream n it wil nvr come true
but no matter how i’m goin to deny it
it’s da truth
but i can feel tat my mom is stil here
cos i know tat she’s stil alive
in our hearts
so now i’ll not cry anymore
i’ll not let my mom to worry bout me even after she has gone
i’ll take care of myself…
妈，不用担心我了。我会很坚强的，我也会自己照顾自己的，您一定要保佑我们全家人，希望您在天之灵能够安息。。。。。