...

im tired of ething la.. juz fil so frustrated now.. aaaaaarrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!! stop all dis pls!!!!!! so damn stressed up la.. i don wan to tink bout it anymore la.. stop telling me bout all these la... so damn f**ked up!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!! let me take a breath pls........... don let me die of suffocating!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how to forgive n forget!!!!! tel me pls............ im realy tired.. so tired.. havin headache....... gosh!! fil like banging myself to da wall ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

信任。。。

你知道吗？
我们之间多了一道围墙
假以时日
当这道围墙
高过你我的高度
那么
我们的友谊
将画下完美的句点。。。

到底是我变了
还是你变了
或是我们的关系变了
无论事实是什么
我只能说
是我变了。。。

原来
一再的相信
只会带来一再的伤害
所以
选择了逃避
选择了放手
选择了离开
是因为
破碎的心
已无法再承受任何的伤害。。。

i LoVe ToDaY~

well.. actually lots of things happened recently.. but.. im juz too lazy to write all out.. so i'll juz make it short.. 1st.. after da visit to inti college i was involved in da st john area competition which was held on 28th march 2010.. our group was NA(sthing)...... em.. sory to tel u guys tat i cant rmb wats my group num for tat comp.. oya.. it was NAC.. hehe.. we won tat comp n thus we had to proceed to da state comp which was held on 11th april 2010.. dis time i rmb our group num.. it was NAB(it mins nursing adult team B)... n we won too.. unexpectedly.. cos our opponent is a very strong team from area 1.. n sad to say.. we din practise at all for tat comp.. tats y all of us felt so surprised.. n cos we won.. we hav to represent malacca to compete in da national comp which wil b held on 12th n 13th jun 2010 (if im not mistaken).. gosh.. n here comes da prob.. out of da 4 members n 1 leader in our group,3 hav da prob of joining tat comp cos of parents.. n im one of them.. but now i guess ething is settled d.. hope so.. stil rmb bout da national comp we joined two years ago.. tat was great.. but.. dis time.. haiy.. fine.. don wan to talk bout dis 1st.. den after da area comp we had da skul sports day(on 31st march 2010).. n ething was juz normal at 1st.. prob started when our great st john president JACQUELINE ANG's leg cramped.. all of us rushed there n treated her leg for her.. after she ok a bit d i pula got prob.. i felt so weak suddenly n my whole body numb.. i couldnt bend o straighten my fingers.. so damn scary.. couldnt control my limbs.. tat feeling was terrible n horrible.. luckily da condition got better after a long long time.. n i was da last to go bak from skul on tat day.. around 6.30pm.. hmmm.. so pitiful.. okay.. now we move on to 10th april 2010.. i went to stamford college for a course so called 'kursus kepimpinan'.. tat day.. i lost my face.. aku telah menjejaskan imejku yang sememangnya dah tak bagus.. haha.. 1st of all.. i was late to da course.. cos i couldnt hear get my alarm n slept too late da night b4 da course.. so i went there a lot.. asked da receptionist where were others n finding for them alone.. went into a lift which has a mirror at da bak ALONE!! so scary n creepy~~ n tat few secs were like hours to me.. den i walked to da lecture hall alone n when i opened da door......... oh gosh.. i realy felt like fainting at tat time.. over 100 pairs of eyes were looking at me.. wa!! so shy la~~ den i walked to da last row n sat beside a teacher.. looking at my frens who were sitting quite far away from me,i felt so lonely~ hmmm.. listened to da sumbody to talk for bout half an hour, it came to da time to hav our light breakfast finally.. realy light.. two pieces of kuih.. n den oni i got to sit wit my frens.. n listened to another talk.. it was kinda boring.. but after tat we had a quite fun activity(get picts n words from da newspaper n create a story n act it out!!) n here.. i sacrificed myself.. my image.. my face.. T.T i acted as a nerdy n ugly person.. i tink i deserve Oscar's best actress... hahaha.. ok.. stop SS-ing here.. luckily our group came up to b da winner.. thanks to me.. haha.. (shy shy~) den after ething was kinda boring again.. den we walked to yuinkei's hse to wait for our parents to fetch us bak.. den at nite went to jac's hse to prepare for state comp on da next day.. n da next day after state comp(mon,12th april 2010) was our exam day.. 2nd monthly test.. i tink im goin to fail my bio cos i din get to study b4 d exam.. was juz too busy.. n tired.. den all da tests on da following next two days were terrible too.. n today!! (okay.. shud b ytd-15th april 2010) i love today!! cos i went out wit two of my besties which r (drum rolls....)....................... okay.. i noe dis is lame.. dey r my beloved rou er(yirou) n qiqi(yuinkei)~~ yea~ we went out to celebrate rou's bday.. em.. hapi advanced bday to her.. shud celebrate on 19th april but we r too busy.. haha.. so we shifted da date to today!! went to sing k in dreambox in da morning.. n gave her da present which is prepared by me n qiqi---------b**.. can u all guess wats tat?? n oso a card n cd of our sweet memories together which is made by qiqi~ hm.. den went to shopping for a while(actually it was a few hours) n trying on clothes.. da most interesting part was when we were shopping in parkson.. suddenly.. no electricity.. n da funniest thing was parkson was d oni place where suddenly had no electricity.. n we were stil inside there at tat time.. it was actually quite scary cos it was realy very very dark till i couldn't even c get qiqi n rou er.. so we used our handphones as torchlight n we managed to get out from tat 'dark parkson'.. as we looked inside we felt kinda amazed as dis was da 1st time for 3 of us to c dis kind of situation.. so we took a pict of tat 'dark parkson'.. soon.. da electricity came bak n so we moved on.. after tat we had a meal in secret recipe.. we sat down there n talked for a long long time.. talked bout lots of things.. felt so great n niceee~~~ den bought milk tea at Green Apple n went to Big Apple to buy doughnuts for rou's mom n sat down again n of cos chit chat again.. den one by one went bak n met again in physics tuition at nite.. at 1st was very hapi but i guess suddenly mood swing n i was kinda emo~ haha.. but now im ok again.. hyperactive again!! but guess i gtg d.. its too late~ i hav skul tml.. hav to get up early.. ciao~~



p/s : for those who wanna view photos of these events, kindly log on to http://www.facebook.com/ n search for my profile.. hehe.. im too lazy to upload da photos here.. sory~ hehe.. ^^

bIoWoRkShOp~

wao.. again long time din write blog d.. so many things happened recently.. too many til i oso dono where to start from.. hm... okie.. gonna tel u all bout a trip to inti college in dis post.. its actually bio workshop.. enjoyed ourselves very much tat day.. ^^ so nice~ fil like goin again.. miss da moments spent there wit my frens~~ hehe..

on da way to inti college...

do not tink tat im hardworking.. i terpaksa wan~ haha..

after we reached dis college...

we had a very 'light' breakfast...

dis is their so called "light breakfast"......

den we went to our lab n started our lessons.......
but of cos b4 da lesson starts......

me n yirou SS wit da lab coat.. haha..

now da lesson starts......

theory stuffs...........

carrying out d experiment... ( may pin n jac )

our group n our lecturer , mr lim chia hong..........

while waiting for other groups..........

woohoo~ 18 SX.............

qiqi , xiao ber , rou er n me~

a group of ' future scientists'...... haha.. XD

jac pouring out da liquid gel.....

while waiting for da gel to dry...

we went to da computer lab....

den bak to da lab again....

da dry gel.........

mr lim demonstrating how to insert da DNA into da wells......

DONE !!!

while waiting for others , we were too bored.... so..... we did dis......

(before............)

(after........) ooo... guan yin ma!!! haha.. im juz right behind of them!!

while waiting for da process of gel electrophoresis , we went for our lunch!!!! hooray!!

on da way to da canteen~

while waiting............ take pict!!!!! hehe... ^^

after finishing our food , we had our desserts - papaya n watermelon.. n dis is me wit around 16 cubes of watermelon in my mouth!!!!! hahaha.. yea~ cool~

after lunch , we went bak to da lab again...

look at dis!!!!

SCARY!!!!!!! well.. tats my hand , may pin's head n jac behind there.. hehe.. ^^ is dis hukuman mandatori??

ini merupakan sekumpulan model 'future scientists' yg terbaik.. haha.. XD

photography session!! naughty gals n blur lecturer.. haha.. XP

yay!! result coming out!!!

staining da gel wit methylene blue solution..

( maypin , me n mr lim ) we were juz playing around.. but... look at da lecturer's face!! haha..

b4 we went bak , photography session again!!!! but dis time..........

all da students , lecturers n teachers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( it was very hot tat time n we stil had to wear da lab coat!! )

while waiting da bus to come........

nice~ we won miss any chances to take photo!! haha.. XD

wa!!! i was stil tying my hair!!

a pict wit our 'tour guides' in Inti~

when da bus arrived , we went to da Jusco in negeri sembilan.. but we din get to snap any photo..... wat a waste.. haiy.. nvm.. at least i hav a pict of a heartless person which bought nice food n ate in da bus n din treat me!!!!!! n she is................

MAY PIN!!!!!!!!!

n last but not least , on da way bak to malacca , me n yirou enjoyed singing songs together!!! hahaha.. XD

yea~ hahaha..

hm.. guess i hav to stop here.. spent a long time writing dis blog.. hehe.. anyways , i juz wanna say tat i realy enjoyed da trip n had fun.. miss it so so so so so sooooooooooo much~ hope we get da chance to hav a trip like dis again.... hehe... gtg d.. ta~

你看见了吗？

你看见了吗？
我的手流着的鲜血
那是
我为了拾起
那被你重重摔碎的心
而不小心割伤的。。。

你变了
变得守不住我们之间的秘密
变得对她毫不隐瞒
变得对我不诚实
变得开始对我冷淡
所以
我选择了沉默
选择把一切藏在心中
选择一个人偷偷地哭泣。。。

有缘无份。。。

原来
发现爱情的存在
往往是因为心痛。。。
原来
有些话
在想说的时候没说
就会来不及说出口。。。
其实
我想对你说
“我爱你”
但是
我们之间的距离
却已经越来越远。。。
或许
这就是所谓的有缘无份吧。。。

女孩。。。

有个女孩
撑着把伞
走在冷清的街上
豆大般的雨点
打在女孩的伞上
就像那千斤重的锤子
打在女孩的心上
女孩的心里
始终挂念着
让她伤心欲绝的某个人
已不再理睬她的某个人
已把她给忘了的某个人
她走向附近的咖啡屋
点了杯香浓的卡布奇诺

向服务生要了张纸和笔
写了一段文章。。。

“你知道吗？
每次我说不再理你了
我都失败了
每次我说不回你的简讯了
我都办不到
现在
就算你伤透了我的心
就算你不再在乎我了
就算我们没有任何关系了
就算你爱上了她
我都无所谓了
因为
我已无法自拔地爱上了你

你的脑子里想的只有她
怎么还会有我呢？
为了你
我渐渐地失去了自己
为了你
我已迷失了方向
为了你
我的泪都已流干了
唯一剩下的只有
默默为你付出的一颗心。。。

卡布奇诺
我们之间的通关密语
它代表着
＝我爱你＝
你还记得吗？”

女孩付了钱后
便带着那张纸
头也不回地走了
留下的只是
那杯还在冒烟的
卡布奇诺 。。。