oya.. forgot to tel u all tat actually i hav a blog at friendster too but since i'm writing here so i don tink i'll b writing there d... anyway , juz wanna tel u all tat there r stil some posts there.. hehe.. u may go n c if u wan to.. da add is http:// 1207my.blog.friendster.com.. but all da post there was quite lame so it's ok if u all don wan to.. haha..

form 5 = spm

spm coming d.. it'll juz b a blink of eye.. cant imagine tat i'm so old ad.. haha.. altho stil in secondary but my frens said tat we r seniors ad.. don realy look like senior lo.. most stil act like small kids.. haha.. time flies realy fast.. i can stil rmb tat when i was in form 1 i was sitting at da back of my class , 1 jingga (2nd class) altho tat time i was very short.. seldom talk to others.. curi-curi makan bread in da class wit my frens.. haha.. form 2.. i was in 2 jingga.. i started to talk n play wit others.. n got quite a lot of frens.. very relaxing.. form 3.. i'm stil in jingga class.. da most fun n greatest year for my secondary life.. altho we had to sit for pmr but we realy enjoyed ourselves.. we laughed together.. played together.. danced together.. joked together.. sot together.. sat for pmr together.. traveled together.. got results together.. n a lot more.. realy miss tat class n all of them.. form 4 which is last year.. i was in da 1st class which is sc 1 at first but i requested to go to da 2nd class.. 4 sc 2.. i was sitting at da back of my class again wit one of my bestie , yi rou.. we ss etime as we were sitting at da last row n da teachers couldn't c us.. hehe.. a lot of them said tat form 4 is a honeymoon year but to me it's not.. a lot of hw.. a lot of tests.. n i couldn't b in da same class wit sum of my bestie as dey're taking art stream.. but i stil get to talk to them as their class is juz beside mine.. haha.. n form 5.. dis year.. i'm supposed to b in da 1st class but i requested to go to da 2nd class again.. haha.. n now i'm in da 2nd class which is 5 SC 2!! hehe.. more frens n more relaxing environment.. hehe.. i like tat.. teachers r very nice too.. but i dono wat course to take after spm lo.. realy got no idea.. haha.. d oni thing tat i'm afraid of is to study alone at other states.. i don wanna leave my frens!!! juz wanna stay wit them 4ever n ever.. haiy.. but tat's impossible.. haiy.. i don wanna grow up d la.. i wan all of us to stay in secondary skul.. hehe.. since 2012 oso coming d.. dey said tat it'll b d end of da world wor.. haha.. mayb yes mayb no.. let's c.. hehe.. anyway , i juz wanna enjoy dis year , da last year of my secondary life........

mY mOm

i had lost my mom last dec.. she left us without saying a word.. i can stil rmb wat happened tat day.. i saw her lying on da bed with no heartbeat n breathing.. n i can stil rmb da last time i touched is when she was goin to be put into da coffin.. me n both my sis help her to wear sum accessories.. i touched her hands for da one last time to help her to wear da bracelet.. her hands was nt as warm as last time.. it was full of coldness.. n da bracelet couldn't realy fit in n yet da undertaker stil wanna me to help my mom to wear it.. my heart was realy pain tat time.. n when my aunt saw tat she started to cry.. i've forced myself nt to cry.. n finally da bracelet was successfully wore.. n i don get to touch her hands again starting from tat sec.. i can only see her thru a piece of glass.. tat was da furthest distance i had wit her.. though she was juz right in front of me.. bt i couldn't even talk to her o touch her.. tat was realy sth sad.. bt i couldn't change sth tat had become da truth.. i could only accept it.. dis few months i alwiz hope tat i was jz dreaming n i'll wake up in juz a little while.. i even slapped myself.. bt all dis doesn't work.. at all.. all dis stil can t change da truth.. da fact.. haiy.. so now i can only hope n pray hard tat she'll be happy in another world.. n i knew tat when i see da brightest star in da sky blinking at nite, it is you, my precious mom.. watching me from da sky n supporting me alwiz~~