你看见了吗？

你看见了吗？
我的手流着的鲜血
那是
我为了拾起
那被你重重摔碎的心
而不小心割伤的。。。

你变了
变得守不住我们之间的秘密
变得对她毫不隐瞒
变得对我不诚实
变得开始对我冷淡
所以
我选择了沉默
选择把一切藏在心中
选择一个人偷偷地哭泣。。。

有缘无份。。。

原来
发现爱情的存在
往往是因为心痛。。。
原来
有些话
在想说的时候没说
就会来不及说出口。。。
其实
我想对你说
“我爱你”
但是
我们之间的距离
却已经越来越远。。。
或许
这就是所谓的有缘无份吧。。。

女孩。。。

有个女孩
撑着把伞
走在冷清的街上
豆大般的雨点
打在女孩的伞上
就像那千斤重的锤子
打在女孩的心上
女孩的心里
始终挂念着
让她伤心欲绝的某个人
已不再理睬她的某个人
已把她给忘了的某个人
她走向附近的咖啡屋
点了杯香浓的卡布奇诺

向服务生要了张纸和笔
写了一段文章。。。

“你知道吗？
每次我说不再理你了
我都失败了
每次我说不回你的简讯了
我都办不到
现在
就算你伤透了我的心
就算你不再在乎我了
就算我们没有任何关系了
就算你爱上了她
我都无所谓了
因为
我已无法自拔地爱上了你

你的脑子里想的只有她
怎么还会有我呢？
为了你
我渐渐地失去了自己
为了你
我已迷失了方向
为了你
我的泪都已流干了
唯一剩下的只有
默默为你付出的一颗心。。。

卡布奇诺
我们之间的通关密语
它代表着
＝我爱你＝
你还记得吗？”

女孩付了钱后
便带着那张纸
头也不回地走了
留下的只是
那杯还在冒烟的
卡布奇诺 。。。

幸福。。。

幸福
难道真的离我如此遥远
明明觉得如此靠近
却怎样也得不到

跨不过的墙
越不过的海
永远到不了的地方－－幸福天堂

虽然
你的心已不属于我
但是
你会永远活在
我心中的某个角落
我记忆深处的某个地方。。。

对不起 ，我爱你 。。。

心都碎了
为什么你要这样对我？
我都哭了好几回
却已挽不回你的心
难道这真的是天注定？
为什么？
请你告诉我

我心里的痛
是笔墨都难以形容的
血流干了
泪也干了
我只想对你说
对不起 ， 我爱你 。。。

rEsT iN pEaCe..

got a quite shocking news juz now.. my grandma had juz passed away in da morning.. we juz went to kl to c her ytd.. we din noe tat we would b holding her hands n talkin to her for d one last time.. she was ad very weak tat time.. din even hav energy to speak a word.. n dis morning.. she left us.. i tried my best not to cry.. cos i knew tat God loves her.. tat's y God took her away to stay beside Him so tat she won hav to suffer anymore.. i always say tat life is precious but short.. so, appreciate life n don giv up life easily.. always cherish d one u love n d one who loves u so tat u won hav any regrets.. last but not least, i wanna tel my grandma tat,'ah jia, ngai oi ngi....'

sT jOhN fOrMaTiOn cOmPeTiTiOn Is oVeR~

woohooo~~~ finally competition is over!!!!!!!! was so sick ytd but juz now was better.. got up early in da morning around 4 sthing... prepared ething n tied my hair up myself den went to payfong2.. when i almost reached there i realized tat i forgot to take my full-u there n i'd to ask my dad to fetch me home again to take my full-u afta dropping my sis at pf2.. den went to pf2 again, pin my hair n put up my hair net n all tat stuff.. den help them to tidy up their hair.... n chit chat for a while.. den we prac for a few times, ate bread, drank milo n got ready.. den da bus reached pf2 n all of us went up to da bus n to Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Padang Temu.. afta reaching there we saw NDC team ad there n started practising.. den we put down all our stuffs, put on our headgear, prac for a while, cheered for our team n till da in charge person asked us to gather.. afta sum instructions, a madam started checking our cleanliness.. i tink we got sum marks deducted here.. den afta tat keluar baris n rested for a while.. n da competition started.. firstly was kategori lelaki.. but there was oni 2 teams.. den kategori perempuan.. we were P2.. P1 was pulau sebang n afta their performance we got ready n started our kawad kaki.. i tink all of us were kinda nervous but we stil had to compete.. at first our kawad was so amazing tat we din make any obvious mistakes n every1 was like wow!!! but when da walking of format goin to fin sum of them made sum mistakes.. n da low class P3 laughed at us.. so impolite.. but we'd to juz continue.. den ething went smoothly til da first formation hormat part.. i counted da timing too fast n caused my row around 5 ppl to step earlier than d others.. STUPID mistake!! den 2nd formation was okie.. 3rd was very gud at first but ending part soh yong n my timing was different n all da things were like messed up.. n da 4th formation was juz okie cos there were stil sum minor mistakes.. den we keluar baris n bersurai.. my last toe was kinda pain tat time cos last time i hurt it n it hasn't fully recover yet.. we rested while watching da FABULOUS notre dame team (P3) to perform their kawad.. i cant say tat dey were bad cos dey were kinda gud but i don like their attitude as dey were kinda arrogant.. i don mind writing dis here cos i knew tat dey don like our skul oso.. but dey stil made sum small mistakes tat i dono y da judges etime couldn't c it.. nvm.. we were very sporting.. den afta their kawad ebody rested for about 1 hour i tink (din realy look at da time).. sum were kinda moody cos of da mistakes dey made.. den we gathered again.. da officer n state commander gave speech n gave souvenir to da judges.. den da most awaiting n exciting part came.. announcing da winner... dey announced da 1st runner up of da kategori perempuan n it was us.. we were actually kinda disappointed cos we put high hope on da champion dis year.. we wanna change da history n make miracle happens.. but stil.. haiy.. n NDC team got 1st.. n den dey announced da best commander.. at first we tot tat it was jac but it ended up wit da NDC commander.. gosh.. n of cos dey got d overall champion la.. i could c tat jac was kinda moody n down n disappointed cos all of us put kinda high hope on her to get da best commander... but her throat wasn't feeling well tat time i tink.. haiy.. den kategori lelaki was smk catholic got first n pulau sebang got 2nd.. n da best commander was da smk catholic commander.. but da weird thing was d overall champion was pulau sebang.. haha.. i tot it shud b smk catholic since dey won more..it doesn't matter to us.. den afta we bersurai da NDC wan shouted like dono wat but of cos we shouted too n it was better than them.. haha.. den i went to da canteen to take da food for them n we had our meal at da skul compound.. we were busy of making ourselves look better i tink.. haiy.. den kategori lelaki was smk catholic got first n pulau sebang got 2nd.. n da best commander was da smk catholic commander.. but da weird thing was da overall champion was pulau sebang.. haha.. i tot it shud b smk catholic since dey won more..it doesn't matter to us.. den afta we bersurai da NDC wan shouted like dono wat but of cos we shouted too n it was better than them.. haha.. den we took sum pict as memories as dis was da last year for us (form 5).. den i went to da canteen to take da food for them n we had our meal at da skul compound.. we were busy of making ourselves look nicer by taking out all da hair net,rubber band n pins on our head which made us look like a group of ppl with oni a few hair.. but i tink it ended up worse.. haha.. den we took sum pict again.. den our bus came n we went bak to pf2.. sum were kinda moody especially jac cos of da result o mayb tired cos got up early in da morning.. afta reaching pf2 we chit chat for a while n one by one went bak including me.. n da first thing i did when i reached my hse was go n bath!! den had sthing to eat n i'm here blogging.. gonna die soon cos i had ujian selaras tml n i hav not even read a single word.. die lo.. n i'm stil replying others comments at fb.. hehe.. mayb goin to study 2nite.. even if cant study fin oso can pakai hentam tml.. tat's wat i'll do whenever i cant fin my studying.. hehe.. gtg d.. ta~~